#repost from something i said in a discord server

[unrealisticallyyours]

it's stressful. it's terrifying. we have no idea what will become of our country and we have nowhere to go. but my mother said this to me today: today we are sad. today we are scared. but tomorrow, and every day after that until this shit is over, we are angry. we are angry they let a felon run for president. we are angry that people burned ballot boxes and intimidated voters. we are angry at the very prospect of all of this. and we will use that anger. i'm not sure how, and i'm not sure when, but we will use that anger. be scared. be terrified. but be angry and hopeful. pray and hope for something to change.

[rumple04]

Hello everyone,

I really wanted to do this post with you to close this incredible year, so let’s go!

Because I like numbers (it’s wrong, I did literary studies) I wanted to share some of them. My passion for Doctor Who now started back more than a year and since then, I have made a total of 157 fanarts from the show. Only for this year 2024, 105. My style has evolved a lot from the first to the most recent fanart. My discovery of the series blew something up in me that made me use very flashy colors that I was not used to using at all. Then, gradually, I fell back on my feet and I returned to colors and a style that I used already before with my OCs. (Know that you can find all my illustrations in my lexicons here)

Tumblr doesn’t share these numbers much and I think it’s very good, but I still had to thank individually the more than 1200 people who follow me here!

And I’m not done with the thanks. You’ve all been amazing this year. Your support, always growing, brought me soooo lot of joy.

My process is quite simple, Twelve (Capaldi in general) and Clara live in my head 24/24 7/7, so I draw them in my corner. I say that it costs nothing to share my brainrot on the Internet and paf: you are here to invade me with likes, repost or even kudos. I am so grateful. Thank you so much 🥺

This year 2024 also marked the opening of my own discord server. This server would never have been created without the adorable @lex144 who once said to me «I dream of a place where Capalfan could gather and create together»

This discord has been a real breath of air for my creativity (and many hours sleep less because of its long exciting or terribly funny discussions).

I met lovely people to chat and create regularly like my dear @neonpsychopomp-blog @beetlegraves @the-immortal-redshirt @dontletmeeatpears31 and I definitely forget some others (because some are not on Tumblr)!

We have all together create incredible links and collaborations! I hope to see many more beautiful projects born from all your talents!

A special thanks to @lex144 who is my twin soul of the internet. Thank you for being so cool and funny, and most of all, thank you for continuing to make the Capaldi era live under your extraordinary pen 🤍 I probably had stop drawing without you!

Some of you know, I was a freelance pin illustrator and designer from 2019 to 2023. 2024 was a year of hiatus during which I had several personal projects to complete (like my marriage for example). Since the end of October, I have been looking for a salaried job. 2025 therefore sounds the beginning of a new adventure but also - obviously - a drop in the level of illustrations.

However, I am also pleased to announce that it’s been several months since I worked on a very complete version of an Artbook gathering all my known and unknown Doctor Who illustrations. As production costs are very high and I am afraid that I will not have enough pre-orders, I want to wait until I have a salaried job to start the pre-orders. I hope you will enjoy it as much as I do!

Thank you again to each of you, for your love and support 🤍

And don’t forget: Laught hard, run fast, be kind.

[papaya-inspiration]

Foreach 2024 Reader Survey Results

So, my buddy @lumsel makes a lil webcomic called Foreach. I help 'em out with it sometimes. The comic's website doesn't have a comment section, so I thought it'd be fun to do a little year-end survey to see who was reading and what they think!

We had an incredible response, with 279 respondents to the survey--more than are in the Foreach discord server! So let's get into it.

Character Popularity Poll

Alright, let's start with the thing I know y'all are most excited about. As the comic creators, we love all our characters equally... but clearly you guys don't!

☀️ SUNNY SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!! ☀️

Y'all REALLY like Sunny, eh? Don't worry, us too. In fact, 80.3% of you listed her in your top 3 favorite characters. Hell yeah.

The next top four characters are the four game protagonists, with Jiro ranking top, then Nix, Cliff and Coral. A lot of readers also mentioned Jiro as particularly relatable/lovable in the write in box at the end of the form. (Don't worry, I won't tell him y'all like him this much. Though with this many Love Warriors, Proteus won't stand a chance invading the island.) I was a bit surprised to see Jasper/Coral ranked as the lowest of the four protagonists! Given that the comic initially presents her as the "anchor" character and a jumping off point for the story as a whole--but that also means she's among the least unusual of the four protagonists, and thus stands out less? It's a hypothesis.

After that, we have Polyta (which makes a lot of sense, she's had some of the most page time of the side characters), then Mercy and Doctor Kree'zik. I wonder if some of this is recency bias, partiularly in Kree'zik's case, seeing as we haven't gotten much past xer character introduction yet. I'll be curious to see how these numbers shift if we run this again next year!

We also got some minor character write ins! Several people said they enjoyed various Aveans, with two votes specifically for the Avean Captains and someone else voting for the avean grunt from page 106 who says "Thanks a bundle!" And I agree: they're pretty adorable. Another person listed "the author" as their favorite character which... you know what, it is a fairly meta comic, so I'll allow it. (Even though, hilariously, Lum is the only member of the creative team to have not had a character cameo in the comic yet.)

Also shout out to the person who wrote in that they almost listed the character cameos for Peri and Kiki (the rat and the rabbit from pgs 24-25) as their favorites. I see you and appreciate you <3

Game Popularity Poll

Not a ton to say about this. People seem to like cozy-ish indie games and furry aesthetics. Makes sense to me.

Comic Info

How are people finding Foreach?

As always, word of mouth is CRUCIAL for indie webcomics getting off the ground. You guys sharing and linking it to friends and communities is really the engine behind getting eyes onto our art--so thank you!

We got another big boost from joining the @spiderforestcomics webcomic collective. So far, it's been a great experience and we've been loving the community over there. So if you're in the market for more comics, definitely go check out some of theirs!

I should note that there is definitely some overlap between these categories. We let people mark multiple answers, so many people marked "Word of Mouth (online)" in addition to other categories like Tumblr and other discord servers. In that broader category, there where several places that people specifically noted finding the comic including:

Our reader Digamma has been tirelessly reposting the comic to the Something Awful forums, and it looks like quite a few people have been keeping up from there! Thanks, Digamma, you're a certified super-spreader!

Dan of @thewebcomicsreview has linked to Foreach several times!

People also mentioned finding it through various discord communities, including the Star Impact server, a server for puzzle games, Foxglove Comics, and others

Rilly had a cameo in @erinptah's webcomic, Leif and Thorne!

Several people discovered it directly through the Neocities discover page!

Cohost, Cloudhiker, and a fairly lukewarm substack review... which nonetheless garnered us a few readers. I'll take it!

Currently, Foreach doesn't pay for traditional banner ads of any kind. So everytime you tell a friend about the comic or share a link to it, you're helping us out a ton! Thank you!

How are people keeping up with comic updates?

Not too much to say on this. Lots of manual checkers, and it looks like we're getting good mileage out of that RSS feed. Excellent!

Readership Info

Discord Membership

We had more survey responses than people currently in the Foreach discord. But even more excitingly, only about one third of survey respondents are also in the discord. Which is exciting, because it means there's more of a readership out there checking the comic updates than we knew previously!

Additionally, I'm personally excited by this result because hearing from those quieter members of our reader base is precisely why I wanted to put out this survey. We have a lovely, active community in the discord, but as a side effect that means we're hearing a lot of opinions from just one, disproportionately vocal part of our reader base. My hope with this survey was that we'd get a chance to hear some voices that we don't usually get to interact with... So for all you silent majority readers out there: Hello! Thanks so much for chiming in!

Patreon Membership

Most of our readers don't back the patreon. Which is to be expected! We actually got a few new patrons signing up after the survey was posted, which is absolutely lovely of y'all. (Hi new patrons! 👋)

If you're wondering what the Patreon money gets used for, it's a mixture of funding extras the comic and supporting Lum's future creative endeavors. This year, we used a big chunk of the funding to commission the Love Bomb portraits for the new Cast Page, which were done by the talented Beajrb (go check out their work!) In the future, some of it may be used for commission work related to the comic, and also for the long term goal for Lum to take some time off their day job to draw comics/make games/etc.

We also asked what else people might like to see us do with the patreon. Right now, we post author commentary on pages with about a 2-chapter lag time, and people seem pretty happy with that over all. There were a few requests for bonus character art, pin ups, or character-asks, and we'll keep that in mind going forward. Since all of us are working full time, there's only limited time we have for making additional content, but who knows what the future holds!

Reader Geography

So where in the world are our readers? Well, I I thought it'd be fun to make this cute little map:

...which turned out to be a huge pain in the ass and a little misleading with the color ranges. So here it is another way:

Our reader base is very American-heavy. Honestly a little moreso than I was expecting? Maybe it's the magnetic charisma of Cliff Mason that keeps drawing them in?

But is it a good comic?

According to our readers, it's a 5.35/5 star comic. Make of that what you will :3

Final Thoughts

At the end of the form, we had an open response box for anything else y'all might want to say to us. And let me just say: y'all blew us away. Thank you so much.

So many of the comments were incredibly kind. People told us about characters they connected to, about how excited they were for to see what happens next. Some of them were sweet, some were horny, some of you compared Foreach to some of OUR favorite webcomics, (which was absolutely unreal to read!) Some of you guys wrote whole freakin' essays! I can't recap everything, but please know that we read every single one of them.

Thank you again for joining us on this journey. Here's to a great 2025--and another year of Freachin' it together!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for posting unspecified fetish content?

I'll try to keep the exposition short. I draw and post sweat fetish content on Twitter. My account has NSFW/"adult only" warnings and I block any minors that I see. Recently, I posted a drawing of two characters exercising together; there were no explicit genitals or anything, but it still had obvious kink elements. I don't usually tag my kink art with any content warnings as it was pretty run-of-the-mill for what I post on that account. Something worth nothing is I tend to draw for one main fandom. It's a family friendly media with a good chunk of it's online fanbase being kids. The characters I draw are adults.

When I checked my notifications a while after it was posted, I noticed one of my drawings got more interactions than usual. I usually get around 100-200 likes on my art, and this one had around 400 when i checked. I saw a lot of new accounts in my notifications, too. I went through the likes on the post and, unfortunately for me, the post had breached containment and entered normie territory. At first I thought it was funny, but as I looked a bit further I saw there were minors interacting and retweeting my art onto their main, SFW accounts. Obviously not good.

So, I posted about what happened in a NSFW fandom discord server in a sort of "this weird thing happened to me and I don't know how to feel about it" way. It ended up starting a bit of an argument in there, with some people laughing it off as normies just not knowing better and others viewing it as an oversight on my end.

Anyways, after a bit of back and forth (I was just kind of watching people talk about it), a server member K replied to my original message with a multiple paragraph long message saying that what I did was dangerous. He said that hiding fetishes in SFW art is a breach of consent (which, for the record, is a sentiment I generally agree with) and claimed that what I did is the same thing groomers do to desensitize kids to sexual content. I responded by saying that I posted my fetish content to a fetish account and one glance at my profile makes it clear my art is not meant to be viewed by kids. He responded to me saying that if I was truly worried about preventing grooming, I would've taken the post down. The argument stopped there because that's when the mods stepped in, asking people to take it to DMs. I did end up deleting and reposting the drawing, but not before I saw K vagueposting about fetish mining in the fandom we're both in.

Should I be more clear when it comes to posting fetish content that isn't explicitly sexual? I honestly feel like it's an overreaction on K's part, but I do understand the anxiety around being accused of grooming. And, unfortunately, trying to "trick" people into making fetish content isn't uncommon online either, so I do get where he's coming from there. Overall, I just want to make sure I didn't do anything predatory on accident.

What are these acronyms?

[star-girl69]

OKAY LIVE UPDATES!! (ALLEGEDLY!!! xoxo pls dont sue me im js a girl)

identity theft??:

q made a fake account pretending to be a girl named saylor [her real acc is saylor.steward05 on tiktok] putting her name, face, college, etc. (that's how saylor was dragged into this)

q dragged paige into the discussion by saying that fake acct of saylor was texting paige, and that paige 'replied' saying everything abt q was fake

-> they think this is fake, since paige is on her side-quest hustle rn and likely wouldn't check her message requests from random people

-> they also think that q is attempting to use paige's name to garner support for herself

reaching out to others:

they haven't tried to reach out to anyone else on the team cause they're trying not to involve anyone else

they've attempted to reach out to maryland sheriff's dept (since q is from maryland), and they said they couldn't do anything- they then reached out to uconn's campus police and attempted to file a complaint, nothing has come of it yet

they've attempted to reach out to coaches, nothing has come of it yet

mariah dmed info abt what's happening to paige, she hasn't replied but they don't know if she's seen it cause she's on vacay and allat

-> they're not mad abt it tho cause they know she's busy and that it's also not her responsibility to handle q's nonsense

azzi's brother joined the live (azzi is suspected to b part of the secret q was leaking), she offered to let him join but said absolutely no pressure if he don't want to

-> he didn't join

q + her fam (potentially) silencing others?

the original post exposing q (on mariah's page) got taken down, they say that q was the one who got it taken down

many of the people who are co-hosting on Mariah's live are coming out to say that they got banned from going live for a while (they think q is mass reporting people to stop stuff from spreading)

q's cousin is in the live

-> mariah's cohosts + ppl in the chat are getting reported/banned off the live, they think q's cousin is potentially helping her with that?

they're wondering if q's family is dealing with things privately, but "the way her family is going about things publicly shows that they definitely aren't doing anything about it)

-> q's sister allegedly posted something Mariah abt catching a fade (I couldn't hear it super well)

other stuff q did:

she DID say something (it wasn't specified what) abt someone's dead ex-gf

q allegedly also talked shit abt her teammates to mariah when they were still talking

a girl + her friend had added q on roblox (she posted her acct. a while ago to js have fun) and they played tgt, then she made an edit and q reposted/liked/faved it, but when she went on q's live ppl were being wild in the comments so she said "y'all r doing tm" and she was blocked cause q thought she was saying that to her

-> claimed that she does have receipts (i didn't see them but it could b true)

other notes:

they're not gonna discuss the 'secret' that q dropped, cause it's obvs not their secret to tell

they're discussing if kk harvey knows about what's happening w q or not, they don't think she knows? (she hasn't made any statements if she does)

-> someone asked her abt it on lacey's live last night, but the comment wasn't acknowledged/noticed

-> talking ab how kk was VISIBLY uncomfortable during their live tgt, talking ab how q was being like 'ditzy' and saying dumbahh stuff like "oh is hockey played in a gym" n other stuff like that (imo that's not the worst??? cause ngl she might js b nervous around kk)

there's a discord server abt surviving q-diddy!! (im not joining cause im not tryna actively put myself into the situation, q aint gon get me xoxo <3)

mariah was not a minor when things went down, but a lot of people who have been reaching out to her/coming out with their own stories were minors (and q knew it)

mariah is ending the live for now, since she doesn't want to risk getting banned/getting her live privilege taken away (might move the live to ig to avoid the ban) + she's starting to cry and she doesn't want to do that on live obvs

-> she'll be back on tiktok live today @ 9pm central time (it'll b pretty late for my timezone and a girls got practice in the morning so

-> she also wants to take some time to find more receipts + recollect cause this is obvs a lot for some1 to go thru

okay long story short q has done this over and over again to a ton of other people, and has also been doing some other wack stuff, a handful of her family members have been siding w her (which obvs isnt okay) -- lets not attack all of her family until stuff is confirmed abt them tho cause they're not responsible for q's actions <3

OKAY MWAH IM SORRY THIS IS A WHOLE THESIS- HAVE A NICE NIGHT XOXO PLS DONT SUE ME Q <3

i’m gonna put this in the tags just in case anyone else wants to know the q tea lol!!!!

OH MY GOD YOURE DOINT GODS WORK let me break this down.

identity theft- oh my god making fake accounts is such a q thing to do. i definitely agree w using paige’s name to garner support, that’s definitely a smart choice ig?? lol too bad it’s fake

reaching out- ok GOOD JOB FOR TRYING TO CONTACT PEOPLE!!! i definitely think the best place to go is with the coaches rn. that is where she’s going to get the most consequences in my opinion, looking forward to updates from campus police and coaches tho

silencing people- yeah i would bet a lot of money that q is the one who got mariah’s video taken down and is mass reporting, idk the things with her family i think have to be taken slowly bc no one really knows what is happening privately. like i just can’t imagine what her family is going through rn and trying to deal w what q has done must be absolutely horrible. i hope they all get some peace after all of this- but i also hope they’re doing the right thing. if q’s cousin really is helping her ban people then that’s a big no-no, but i feel like also why would her cousin join purposely on their acc instead of some secret spam or smth??? idk that’s just me, but who knows

other stuff- i heard about the ex gf thing i’m pretty sure from the original person, i cannot remember where i saw the video but i’m pretty sure it was from someone on tumblr who has reposted it. i don’t remember what was said either tho, omg the roblox thing is crazy… blocking someone that fast who you had a good relationship w previously is like kinda mentally ill as shit lmao???

other notes- i’m so glad they’re not discussing the secret.

kk harvey- ok about them acknowledging it- this unfortunately happened on the live like the second BEFORE i started screen recording- i think someone asked if laila and kk knew about the q drama and i THINK laila responded with “there’s no q drama” or something along those lines- I COULD BE COMPLETELY WRONG SO DONT TAKE THIS AS FACT!!!! i genuinely don’t remember that well. honestly the kk and q lives (the clips of it i’ve seen) didn’t seem very predatory? just very awkward and weird. kk was obviously uncomfortable i totally agree and i think q probably could have noticed that and at the very least toned it down, q was being very “ditzy” lol but i honestly just think that was either her trying to flirt or as you said drama anon just her being nervous

queen definitely don’t join if you’re not comfortable!!!! we appreciate you watching this live and keeping us updated so much, i’m sure most of the stuff in the discord is just regurgitated from the lives but if something major does come out i’m sure we’ll all hear about it. also don’t worry about getting the live for tonight!!! i seriously appreciate you so much for this, you are truly one of god’s strongest soldiers LOL 🙏🙏

minors- yeah the fact that this now involves minors has definitely like brought this up to a level TEN… some type of law enforcement definitely needs to be involved at this point.

i think the best thing mariah can do in this situation is remain calm and not spark the flames anymore, don’t give q reasons to mass report people, her and the other victims need to collect all of their evidence and receipts and get it to someone who will know what to do- and if that ends up being the police then that’s what it ends up being.

i definitely agree w you w the stuff about her family, at the end of the day WE DONT KNOW. we don’t know anything, we don’t know what’s true and what’s fake and unless there’s concrete evidence i think everyone following along w the situation needs to take everything with a grain of salt, verify their sources, and listen to multiple perspectives of what’s going on and think CRITICALLY about all of this for just a second.

q is the only person who is responsible for her actions, and she needs to be held accountable for them.

thank you SO MUCH for this thesis i literally love you drama anon. i hope you have an amazing night and i hope q diddy doesn’t get you ❤️❤️❤️ (if anyone sues you or attacks you just send them over here bc i will FIGHT)

[mighty-toshi-stan]

Twink For All

Title has nothing to do with the content whatsoever, it's based on something funny my friend said in a Discord server. This is very much a SWF fic that takes place during Deku's Shadow The Hedgehog era, specifically when All Might tries to feed him lunch and then Deku responds by fucking off into the sunset [the sunset is metaphorical because it's raining]. Also I'm literally typing this on my phone while laying in my bed at 1AM and I'm probably going to post it without even reading it first. Might repost on ao3 after I actually edit it. Godbless

My UA teacher dorm reminds me of the dorms the "rich kids" had at my undergraduate university, so many years ago. Suite style. Two separate bedrooms, each with its own bathroom, a shared living room, and a kitchen. It was more like an apartment. Nezu told me that when he called me out of the blue one day and offered me a job teaching Quirk Theory. When I was first escorted to the dorm, I almost felt offended the moment I saw his gaudy American decor in the living room. I wanted to be pissed. I should have been pissed, because it was obvious what Nezu and the others were trying to do: get Toshinori and I to start talking to each other again.

The two of us had grown up together. His family hosted me as an international student at the age of 12. We continued to cling to each other even after his parents were killed, when he met Nana and was gifted her Quirk, and through our first two years as UA students.

Then Nana was killed. And when we needed each other the most, he pushed me away.

I realized many years ago that he'd only been trying to protect me back then, to keep me from being targeted by the same person who murdered Nana. So, it's not like I still hold it against him. But it still hurt. Especially because I had no one else but him, and he knew that.

Anyhow, Nezu's plan worked. Of course it did. When you grow up watching someone's back and being protected by them in turn, it's hard not to fall back into the habit of taking care of each other, even after decades of separation.

It's a peaceful, rainy day. I've been in my room for most of it, making the most of the opportunity to knock out some of the books on my to-read list. My bedroom door is wide open. It would not be open if I lived with literally anyone else.

Toshinori was cooking something earlier. I didn't see him, but I could hear him in the kitchen. It smelled like he was cooking one of the foods that he can't eat due to his many medical issues. It piqued my curiosity, but I figured it was none of my business.

I'm still curled up on my bed reading when I hear him return. He has a habit of announcing himself when he comes home, but he's silent this time. I'm immediately suspicious.

I'm still staring at the pages of my book, but I am no longer reading. I'm listening to his sluggish movements echoing throughout the dorm, a million possibilities running through my head.

Should I step outside my room and ask him directly about what he's been up to today?

No, it really isn't any of my business...

"Hey," Toshinori says from the hallway, his neck bent awkwardly to look at me so that he's not talking to the doorframe. He's wearing different clothes than he was before he left- his previous outfit must have gotten rained on.

Did he forget his umbrella?

"Hey," I say, sitting up. "You're free to come in, if you'd like."

Toshinori doesn't say anything, but he gingerly ducks underneath the door frame to step into my room.

The deep shadows over his eyes make it hard to tell when he's been crying. But the evidence is almost written into his posture and the slight pout of his lip. It looks exactly the same as it did when we were teenagers.

"Oh, Toshi. Toshi. Come here. What's wrong?" I ask gently.

He sits down on my bed, and he tells me about what happened with Midoriya. About how goddamned worried he is about him. About how lost the poor boy looks. About how he completely rejected not only the lunch he made for him, but Toshinori himself. About how he fell in the mud and ruined his clothes while desperately trying to grab him, to make him understand that he doesn't have to shoulder the burden of One For All alone. About how useless he feels.

I reach over and brush a stray tear off his cheek. He closes his eyes and leans into my touch for a moment. I relish in being able to offer him some sort of comfort.

"Is this how awful made you feel, back in the day?" He finally asked.

"I.....Yeah," I answer with a sigh, not wanting to lie to him. "The situation's different because you've taken on a parental role with Midoriya. But he's trying to protect everyone he cares about, including you. Just like you did. It's a side effect of having a hero's heart, I fear," I add affectionately.

He says nothing in response, but he lays down beside me. His thoughts seem far away.

"Do you want to know what you look like to me right now, Toshinori?" I say, pulling off the most serious expression I can muster.

"Hm?"

"Like a Golden Retriever who just got a shot in the ass at the vet."

He snorts. "You have such a way with words."

"I got you to smile, though."

"Yes, you did. I'll give you that."

I reach out a hand and gently stroke his hair. He blinks in surprise and looks up at me, and I quickly retract my hand.

"Sorry, I should have asked first," I mumble.

"Oh, no, it's nice," he says quickly. "I just wasn't expecting that, is all."

"Oh, I see," I say, still unsure. "Well, you're free to stay in here with me for a while if you want."

"I'll take you up on that."

I lay down beside him, and he nestles his face against my shoulder. I don't react externally, but I'm a bit surprised that he's initiating physical contact like this.

"You're really hurting," I say. "Poor thing."

He huffs in response, not wanting to be pitied. But he doesn't move.

Tentatively, I reach out my hand and gently start stroking his hair again.

"Your hair's getting long," I comment nonchalantly.

"At exactly what length should I keep it to get you to do this more often?"

I chuckle, grateful for the confirmation that he's genuinely enjoying this. "Any length works."

[maddy-k-reads-all-day]

Sitting in a little cozy corner of the library...

Hey hey hey it's Maddy K! (she/her) Usually an author and artist but over here... I like to talk about the creative works I LIKE rather than the ones I WRITE <3

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And if you like horror, check out my amazing best friend/roommates blog @gore-void please! She's been hoping to get some eyes on her storiesssss! Please!

THIS IS MY SIDE BLOG PLEASE GO FOLLOW MY MAIN BLOG!!! @maddys-kreative-korner

Rules (same as my main blog):

Do not say hurtful things to myself or others. You never know what people are going through on the other side of the screen.

No NSFW stuff

Please do not steal, repost, or trace my work.

Everyone is welcome here as long as they don't do things to make others feel unsafe. Just be a decent human being.

For the most part the stuff I talk about is in the teen to young adult age rating (14+ to MA stuff). So like, teens are technically allowed here. That said, we're only here to talk about art and fun stuff. No personal information or weird stuff. Just follow the basic internet safety rules.

This is more of a note to self because I keep tagging my fav posts under different tags and forgetting/losing them so now all my fav posts will be tagged "my fav posts"

All my fanfics are under the maddykwrites tag!!!

Amanda the Adventurer Everything's Fine AU masterpost:

CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS WELCOMED AND ENCOURAGED (as long as you are being constructive about it).

Anyway here's all the media I enjoy and will probably post about here: (warning long list) (if you enjoy these shows, ask or comment so we can chat about them!)

Sleepy Princess in the Demon Castle (big one)

Toilet Bound Hanako Kun

Vocaloid

Puella Magi Madoka Magica

Amanda the Adventurer

Splatoon

Apothecary Diaries

Mayonaka Punch

Frieren Beyond Journey's End

The Amazing Digital Circus

Anything mio- might- dang autocorrecd. Anything Mii related.

Speaking of mio. K-on. K-ON! K-ONNN!!!!!

So Cute it Hurts

Shojo manga

Indigo Park

Tokyo Mew Mew

Train to the End of teh World

My Little Pony G3

World's End Club

Fruits Basket

Sonic (sometimes, rarely.)

Animal Crossing (Maybe?)

Three Leaves three colors

The greatest showman

The wizard of oz

Cuphead (haven't posted but maybe will someday)

Epic Mickey (same as the first)

Kimi ni Todoke

The Girl from the other side

HOW THE HECK DID I FORGET FUTURE DELIVERY, HOW DO WE RELATIONSHIP, AND I WANT TO EAT YOUR PANCREAS (Ignore the title man it's so good).

Kodocha (someday. Someday)

Animal Land. (I have posted about this actually)

In this Corner of the World

Komomo Confiserie

Hi Score Girl

A Salad Bowl of Eccentrics

Toradora

Error Save File Is Abandoned

Honey Lemon Soda

If I forgot to mention something or got into something new then... whatever *shrugs*

[dervampireprince]

Same anon as in the chatbot ask!

I appreciate and admire your stance on AI; I’m working on a research project highlighting the harmful impacts of CAI and was really hoping you weren’t in support of the platform.

I’m frankly disturbed by how many creators I found bots scraped from with a quick scroll. I’m so sorry it happened to you, and equally sorry to have to bring it to your attention. I hope this is more of a one-off than a recurring issue.

Have a lovely evening, keep being cool :]

/gen /p

honestly it makes me feel almost violated.

i remember seeing a reddit thread where someone was like 'i joined a vtubers patreon and got in vc and said i use cai and they all told me i shouldn't use it' and all the comments were like 'theyre so toxic' 'they just dont understand' and guys... yes they probably did understand. if someone is making fun of you for being lonely or 'cringe' by using cai yeah they're being an asshole, but you are in the wrong for using cai. how do you think it generates writing and voices? by stealing the writing and voices from people.

i've seen cai users say the voice feature does 'feel' wrong as it's taking from real people, but none of them seem to know or want to acknowledge that the writing also steals from real people. generative writing like cai, chatbots, chatgpt, etc, have to get trained on something. and that something is real writing by non-consenting authors, ficwriters, journalists, anyone who writes anything online even someone's personal blog or tweets. even if you're making a chatbot for your own oc, and not someone else's character, the chats it generates your oc is taken from stolen writing.

as far as i can see there is no way to get my characters removed from cai. you can report voices being used without consent, but not writing.

this is what i found of my characters on cai, and it makes me really upset and uncomfotable.

they also took some of my art of ambrose and arden to use as the thumbnail and didn't credit me as the artist. even if they had credited me, i do not allow reposting of my art. also, no one in their lives has ever described arden as "smiley" (i'm not policing anyone's headcannons or imagination with that one, just pointing out something silly to lighten the mood so i don't have a complete meltdown).

yes i censored out the cai users name who made these chabots. please do not go and hunt them down, please do not go and find them or message them. especially as we don't know if they're a minor.

it seems to me a lot of minors use cai which is worrying as who knows what the chatbot could spit out regardless of safety measures they have in place. and i'm sorry anyone's so lonely they have to turn to cai only.. you don't have too. fanfic exists, rp communities exist, various online communities whether tumblr groups, discord servers, subreddits, are people still using amino? i mean if you're a minor you should be extra careful getting into online communities and talking to others online (and if you're a minor you shouldn't be following this blog) but like... imagination exists. try getting into creative writing?

idk when we did get so bored with imaginations we had to do this. you know what i did as as kid and there was no access to anything like this? i would copy and paste fanfics into microsoft word, find and replace one characters name with my own and boom you got yourself a self insert fic (note: these edited files were only ever kept on my pc, i never posted them anywhere). and there's soooooo many reader insert fics out there now, hell i literally make my own reader/listener inserts of my own characters, i'm not starving you for content out here. and i'm okay with people writing fanfic about my ocs or commissioning others to write you fanfics (my commissions aren't open).

thankfully i don't think my voice has been uploaded on there? i clicked the 'call' button to see what would happen and nothing did so i think that means there's no voice? or perhaps it doesn't work unless you make an account i don't know.

yeah sorry that became a longer rant. i don't know if more of my ocs are on cai, these are just the ones i found by searching my username in there. there could be other copies of my characters on there that don't credit me.

also a lot of character uploads use ai 'art' as their pictures which you know is also terrible and steals from artists.

and you're right, there's so many more characters taken from small creators and other VAs. i searched yuurivoice on there and got 50+ results of chatbots of his ocs AND ALSO OF HIM. please do not making cai's of real people that is so much worse than someone's oc, it's equally as bad on the stealing front but also so paraosocial. you do not know yuurivoice, you cannot get a bot to act like him as you do not know him or how he acts. watching a creators videos or streams does not mean you know anything about the real them, and especially does not mean you know them or are friends with them. found at least 5 for cardlin audios, some of his ocs and some of him. 6 for dark and twisted whispers ocs.

and if a creator gives you permission to make their oc into a chatbot... that doesn't make the chatbot okay. a creator can consent all you like, but the writers who's work was stolen to train that chatbot still didn't get to consent.

in the rare chance any cai user who's made chatbots of my characters on there sees this post: please delete them. please. you didn't get my consent for this. and you didn't get the consent of all the writers your chatbot was trained on. i don't think you're stupid or cringe for using cai, but you are contributing to generating ai content which is stealing from real humans and harming the environment.

[spookypartycrit]

Update on verns stream mod

Ttdr: one of Verns stream more was being incredibly lesbianphobic on twitter. Posting shit about how lesbians were mostly transphobic and making jokes how lesbians should exterminate themselves.

Vern and every vern mod has been informed and this mod has most likely kicked from his stream mod team. And out of verns server. They can be lesbianphopic on twt still but they can do it without mod power in this community.

More under the cut. All names are censored as this bitch dont need more attention. And theyve already been punished. Best case is to forget about them. Im still anti callout post. Consider this a information post.

When people first told me about this mod i honestly couldent find anything. and i was confused why being gios friend would event warrant fame.

However after a anon found them for me i did some digging. Tbh when i first went through i didnt find much, they repost half of twt, and admittable besides what i posted i didnt find much. But after telling multiple people and have multiple people on main who like i suspected just wasent informed. Much more was found

Some examples

After these ss were passed around people were disgusted. And somthing had to be done. So a friend of mine on main posted a ticket to verns mods.

verns mods were receptive to the evidence. and just as i suspected didnt know this was happening. I figured a community built on queer acceptance wouldent let something like this slide and i didnt doubt vern for a second.

they were real nice to my friend too even though theyve said a total of like. Ten words in that server.

Point is that bigot was banished. and alot of main has been informed what they choose to do with the info is up to them. Im not gonna bring it up anymore.

While i might be freedom of speech im not freedom of consequnces. We can have a diffrenece of what needs consequenc. But u cant be a bigiot. I will stand on that. Im against all forms of hate. Espically from a mod, lesbians should feel safe.

I thank the quick work of verns discord mods, vern and my friend who did the ticket. As well as everyone who helped gather ss’s. As well as anons who told me what was up

Lgbt community is always united you dumb bitch my bi and trans homies were all saying u were a cunt. You can repost about that, ive seen better coke rants from dream when someone calls him a cheater.

Only reason i didnt inform yall yesterday was i wanted to make sure this was done properly. I will never mysterious post again

[blukutz]

lonnnnng rant

i've been offline on discord for a few days to see if anyone would message me first,, reach out and maybe ask if im even okay

nothing

all they do is prove that im right that nobody every messages first. its always me

i left our small friend server (a server we made SPECIFICALLY so i wouldn't be alone and fall back into bad habits) to no assurance

all i got was "hey idk if i kicked u here's the link back"

im not going to join back, are you kidding

you aren't even AWARE that something could be wrong, you want me to come back and pretend everything is fine? that it's normal? only being there for me when im happy enough to tolerate being around? seriously???

they didn't even THINK there was a chance that maybe, i just left, of my own accord

they didnt even follow up after that,, "hey you've been offline for a while, and before you went offline, you said some worrying things." nothing

i cant fucking believe it

the morning i woke up after a night of having a panick attack and genuinely thinking of killing myself,, all i got was "are you feeling okay now"

like they were fucking WAITING for a storm to blow over

that makes me sick

and this is all from one person, nobody else even bothered to check

im sorry to you,, that one person,, this may be rude but i get really pissed off by you a lot. i like you but constantly it feels like you have no awareness. "wanna watch anime with me. have u seen my msg. hey" anytime i repost something on main instead of maybe asking if i was even alive

im so angry

someone i consider really close barely said anything to me,, they just sent their vrchat screenshots after i mentioned wanting to purge

im sorry if i made you uncomfortable,, if i did i really am sorry

but i really wanted to hurt myself after all the apathy you give me

all i got were "hey, maybe dont." and then a complete shift in topic

i know if it was your boyfriend, you wouldn't say that, would you? you would stubbornly make sure he's okay, do anything to make sure he was happy

so if thats how you act with people you care about, what does that say about me?

like maybe, nobody really cares if nobody bothers to ask if im okay.

oh, your discord status changed from happy to "really considering rn.." and "i feel like shit"

yeah haha i also felt like shit,, trying to rub a blade into my skin

maybe im just hurt. im mad at my friends for no reason and im the one being the asshole because my feelings are hurt

im sorry, i feel bad about that

but nobody even asks about me

how am i supposed to believe you care

[catboytenya]

Fiiiine have a pinned post

Pinned post stuff goes below the cut!

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Hi! I'm Catboytenya! I'm plural, so using They/Them and It/Its as catchall pronouns for us is ideal!

I block VERY heavily to curate my internet experience and I recommend you do too!

I follow from @catboytenyamain

Find my art here DO NOT REPOST MY ART OR FICS UNDER ANY CONDITION

MY COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN (STILL OPEN BUT I'M MAKING A PROPER COMMISSIONS POST TO REPLACE THIS ONE!)

I post my fics on my ao3, and I talk about my fics and answer questions about them over at @bunboyizuku

Here because of something my ex said about me? Did he send you specifically to check my blog? Consider reading this post, please. I also encourage you to contact me privately if you have any further questions, as I don't want to discuss this publicly anymore than I already had to in order to defend myself.

Mutuals can always ask for my discord! I also have a bnha discord server! Anyone can always ask to join, but I don't post the link publicly!

King of blorbo tagging random funny videos as bnha characters so accurately I get prev tagged often

I also run @everypanelofizuku @everypaneloftenya @onebnhapageanhour @dailybakugo and a few more that I'll add once they're more active!

My analysis project sideblog is @camposnotebook if that interests anyone! (Not currently started!)

I'm a system with a decent amount of fictives (traumagenic, if it matters to you) and I like when you ask who's fronting + their pronouns if you don't know their pronouns yet!

Do not ever involve me in ANY type of discourse, anyone who sends me any ask about any type of discourse is getting shot dead with the Block Glock. I've participated in discourse a few times but I have a lot of trouble wording things/getting things across properly because of my autism, and have often had people read me in bad faith and assume I meant the complete opposite of what I've said, which is frustrating for everyone involved, so I'm dusting my hands from discourse entirely.

I will say, though, that if you're intersexist in any way I hate you and so does Tenya Iida. And if you're transmisogynistic or transphobic in any way I hate you and so does Tenya Iida. Also, fuck Trump, and fuck Elon Musk.

Although I'm mostly a BNHA centered blog, I'll also post other fandoms, and other random funny posts here and there! Bit of a kitchen sink kinda blog! I'm also a MULTISHIPPER, you'll see a LOT of different bnha ships! I recently cleared out almost every post that wasn't bnha or fandom related, leaving a few favorite funny posts!

My favorite character is, rather obviously, Tenya Iida, but I also really like a lot of other characters, like Kurogiri, Izuku, Katsuki, Shouto, Ochaco, Mina, Eijiro, Oboro, and many, many more, we'd be here all day if I made a whole, complete list!

And I ask, very kindly and politely, that you do not get me involved in any sort of shipping discourse or drama, I'm sorry, I'm an adult, I don't care about shipping discourse. I will block people with ships that make me uncomfortable for my own mental health and that's as far as I'll go. I don't care about your ships as long as you respect my decision to block you if your ships make me personally uncomfortable if I see them! I have most of the ships and dynamics I dislike blacklisted, though, so there's a high chance I won't even see it. (If you were nice enough to tag it so I don't have to see it!)

Please understand that I almost never participate on tag games or ask chains especially ones that are guilt trippy in any way or are threatening in any way. I also never reblog anything that's reblog bait or "reblog this or you're a terrible person." I have OCD and also deal with things like delusions. If I ignore your tag it's probably because of this. Do not tag me over and over on the same post.

I have a decent amount of pets that I'll post occasionally, including three cats, a snake, and many different breeds of isopods! If you don't want to see Butterbean, please blacklist "snake" or "butterbean" and if you don't want to see my isopods, please blacklist "isopods" or "bugs"!

I also plan on eventually breeding Kenyan Sand Boas, if you're interested in eventually buying from me, keep an eye out! Once the project is started, you'll be able to keep up with it with the tag "sandboabeanlets" (I'm still saving up for females to pair with Butterbean!)

What else goes on a pinned post?

[spideywhites]

Hello! I just wanted to start this off by saying I love TCOS and TMNGTCR (even the abbreviation is long as heck lol). You’re honestly an amazing writer and I aspire to write like you someday. I always come up with good plots that interest me but find a hard time building up to them like you do. Your characters, side plots, themes, grammar, and everything else that goes into your stories are paid attention to with such care. It enhances the reading experience tenfold.

My original question was about fanart. I’m reread TCOS and I remember seeing fanart linked in the story before but I’m not able to find it.

1. Did you delete it or are my eyes just failing on me?

2.Also, I was going through some of your Q&A’s and noticed how you said Natsume was a reincarnated Naruto character. Has he had multiple incarnations since he knows things about the real world?

3. I know love interests haven’t been finalized so feel free to ignore this part but how do you feel about Nastume and Karin? He thinks of her like family so it’s hard to tell if that’s in a cousin way or something that could possibly lead to more. I like the idea of them in a relationship since it’ll give more of the spotlight to Karin (a criminally underrated character considering she’s literally related to the MC in canon) and because I think they have an interesting dynamic that I can see becoming romantic. Natsume’s also looking for a wife so it also kind of works out lol.

4. Will there be any Uzumaki (OCs) introduced? Besides nagato there’s no canon Uzumaki currently alive right now. Does that mean you’ll write some in the story?

Sorry for all the questions and rambling!

Hello! Thank you so much! I’m really glad to hear that, since a lot of my stuff I’ve really just come up with on the fly. It’s more recently that I’ve been trying to do some basic outlines for fics to help me finish them. And no need for apologies! I love answering questions and hearing thoughts on my fics, it’s great for motivation. I’d rather apologize for how long it usually takes me to GET to questions, lol. Just been a busy few months!

To answer some of your questions:

1) I don’t recall removing fanart from the fic itself, but I’ll go back and check links in case anything is broken. I’ve received a LOT of amazing fanart for this fic and try my best to repost it here on tumblr (tagged w/ Natsume’s name) and also in my discord server. The fic itself probably isn’t up to date with any links.

2) As of now, there’s just the two reincarnations I want to explore and I don’t have any current plans to change that. I am writing most of this with a basic outline, however, so things could change as I go!

3) I’m going to avoid this question just because I don’t want to confirm or deny anything, lol

4) I have a lot of Uzumaki / Uzushio plans! Hopefully they’ll all come to fruition. I don’t find it believable that every single Uzumaki was murdered, and we never got a definite answer to the question of what really happened, so as fans we’re able to play around with details like it’s our personal sandbox - and that’s exactly what I’m going to do! i don’t want to be too specific because of spoilers, but I hope this answers your question enough.

[notyourtribe]

“reposters, maybe consider euthanasia idk” is an absolutely insane fucking thing to say over something so unimportant.

Icky, nasty, vile.

(For those who are unaware what Euthanasia means)

Honestly, no I’m actually really bothered by this because it’s an indirect message at me.

It’s so fucking unnecessary and the fact it’s like a “go k!ll yourself” type of fucking message. You’re fucking disgusting and that isn’t wanted in this fandom.

You wanna say shit like that you someone then you need to come say it to be directly and not block me like a little bitch and hide in Tumblr world.

Do you really think Kyle would appreciate you saying that shit while using his damn name as your username. Absolutely the fuck not dude.

Also NO WHERE AT ALL DID I SAY ANY OF THIS.

You can literally read all my tweets and ask Spooky on fucking god I never said any of that. Are you serious???

Edit: Ha of course, you deleted your message and everything I said under it got removed. Funny, because in the tweets I was explaining to you why you got kicked out of the discord server and trying to talk with you and you never responded.

But here you are 1. Telling people to off themselves and 2. Lying saying I said shit that never fucking happened.

You think if I said that shit publicly on Twitter I wouldn’t be getting shit on all over my page for it? Are you joking?

You wanna sit there and tell me to grow up but you’re saying all this shit over wanting validation of a photo of Kyle that you took from his own shit 😂 be so fucking real. Grow the fuck up.

You didn’t “talk to me like a toddler” because you never responded back to begin with. What the fuck are you on? You blocked me and ran to Tumblr.

You really think Kyle is happy that you use his name to say the shit you just did?

[sheepwithspecs]

Hello! It been a really really long time since I've been on this platform so I can only assume as much for others lol 😅 but anyway I was rewatching Coco and I randomly remembered a fanfic I read that was really well written and sweet on "Imector" and the family dynamics! I looked everywhere and finally found "Echar Agua Al Mar"! But it was only repost or excerpts. I saw someone saw this was your new account so! (Sorry for the long story 😅) but

TLDR: I was wondering what ever happened to Echar Agua Al Mar? Why not put up again? I loved the story, but I understand if you just scraped bc you wanted and that's it lol

P.s I'm glad you're still writing!

Hello!

Yes, I am the writer of Echar Agua al Mar! To answer your question, I guess the easiest answer is: "I never finished it and got tired of people constantly asking when it would be finished.". It didn't seem fair to my readers to constantly say things like "probably never, to be honest", so I took the story down.

It's a very long story, but a lot of inner-fandom conflict happened in 2019/2020 within the DP-Coco fandom (both in a particular discord server and with certain people) that really disillusioned me with the fandom as a whole. I have not interacted with the Coco fandom or its fans since then, and I don't have any intentions of returning. If I do decide to re-upload any old stories in the future, it will only be as a thank you to the people who still remember my work, rather than a return to the fandom. In addition, they will be finished 100%.

That being said, thank you for remembering me and my work all these years! It makes me feel so happy to know that something I created had an impact on someone to the point that they remembered it even after it vanished from the internet. 🥹

I hope this answers your question!

[lord-of-the-nemaverses]

It Was A Good Run, Everybody: An Open Letter to MTG Cardsmith

With the exception of this small segment here, and the occasional bracket making it clear I'm talking about MTG Cardsmith and not Tumblr, this post is, verbatim, a copy of a post I am making on the MTG Cardsmith Forums. I hope there's room for resolution, but I understand that may not happen, so I would like to keep this copy of my statement so that, if it's deleted over on the Forums, what I say can still be heard.

It's been years since MTG Cardsmith has received any significant front-of-house updates. When Grant left, he left a legacy that may not have been perfect, but the Forums crafted a tight-knit community that I eventually grew to call friends. [The] wonderful community has helped me through my hardest times, and despite several hiatuses brought on by personal struggles and writer's bloc, I still tried to hold [the] site close. Even after I stopped using the tools on the main site, I still ran Sagas and engaged regularly on the Forums. Unfortunately, it didn't last forever, and soon, things went silent, eventually leading to a monetization of the site, a change of ownership, and radio silence.

A few years pass. Many of us had moved on; we still kept in touch, but it was nothing most of us couldn't do offsite. It seemed like the main site was as good as dead; we still used the Forums, but we cared about MTGCS less and less, mainly using it to get more attention for our cards. Sagas steadily died, community projects were abandoned, and a lot of us branched out. In my case, I started a Discord server for my sets, starting using mtg.design (then MSE) for card design, and joined multiple other communities outside the site. I even began to contemplate making my own card game as the excitement towards MTGCS (and as a result, MTG itself) began to die, replaced by a feeling like no one was listening. And then, it happened. Suddenly, the site went down for maintenance. Despite nearly derailing the most successful Saga on the forums, the site was back, and changes were being made... but whoever's in charge now isn't here for the community. Despite engaging with them, that engagement has been... less than ideal, to say the least, with a major community member getting scapegoated by them to argue in favor of AI stealing from human artists. To add, my very first attempt to bring this to light resulted in my voice being silenced.

What did I do? I posted this message on the main site, a message from the official Discord mod, as well as a link to more context. Quite frankly, this wasn't even one of the more damning things said, and more just the specific instance where the member in question, Ranshi, was used as an example.

So, it's with a heavy heart that I do something I should have done a while ago. I don't have to be on [the] site to be with the community and express my creativity, and quite frankly as an artist, my talent doesn't belong on a platform where its community will be mistreated and suppressed. It does not belong on a site led by someone that believes reposting art for personal, nonprofit use only and crediting artists is comparable to stealing from thousands to train an AI, profiting off of it, and providing no compensation to the artists. That being said though, I'm not here to talk about if AI belongs in society, as that debate has not true answer; the facts stand, and that's as follows:

The mod in question singled out a member of our community to try and make them look bad, rather than trying to have a mature discussion or just letting things be. (Shown above)

The mod in question does not care about the moral implications of AI stealing from artists.

The mod in question disregarded a vocal majority to implement the new AI generation feature less than 24 hours after its announcement. (7+ people at the time [9+ total] argued against it before it was rolled out, and only 3 came to defend it besides the mod [2 of the people that made arguments for AI were still against it].)

The site is using a variant of Stable Diffusion. Stable Diffusion was shown to have been trained on art without permission, and made money off images generated based on that training.

If you would like to spread this message in case it's deleted, I'm sharing everything (that I can legally share) about this situation on my Tumblr.

Unless the [MTG Cardsmith] site lead releases a formal apology about this incident, makes amends to those impacted, and ceases the operation of AI on the site permanently, I am leaving the site. If I am removed or do leave, I would like all of my cards, images, and discussions from both of my [MTG Cardsmith] accounts (Tommia and AddGG) on both the main site and Forums to be permanently deleted from both the site itself and any local storage related to it. This especially includes anything of mine relating to Artful August or Stitia.

Now, given the nature of this situation, I know people certain people are going to try and pull a "gotcha" on me, to trying and find some fallacy to get me on instead of admitting that facts are facts and having a mature discussion about this. I also know the possibility of that discussion not being an option and this being instantly deleted is also an option. So, in addition, here's some added context.

AI actually isn't the main reason I'm leaving. However, the extreme stance taken on it and the use being for profit is certainly a factor.

Yes, I have used AI before. However, I changed my standing on it after factual evidence proved artists were being stolen from. I have deleted all local AI art on my system, scrubbed the AI art off any cards I've made locally, and avoid using AI when possible, even cancelling my plans to start using Photoshop.

There is a DMCA form on the site for any artist to fill out and have their art stripped from the site. With AI, this process is far harder; if someone discovers their art was used by it without their permission, it can't be dealt with so easily because the art is baked into the AI's training.

[coupsie-daisies]

Old Dog, New Tricks | Bang Chan & Lee Minho

Pairings: Switch!Lee Minho x GN!Switch!Reader x Sub!Bang Chan

Genre: PWP (some plot if you look for it), Friends with Benefits

Summary: Chan is a virgin, something he desperately wants to change. And lucky for him, Minho knows just the person to help

Word Count: 7.6k

Warnings: Afab reader (gender neutral), Talk of and Loss of Virginity, exhibitionalism and vouyerism, dirty talk, praise and degradation, oral (male receiving), threesome, premature ejaculation, fingering, Reader is a cherry picker lowkey, marking, an obscene amount of nipple play, kind of oral fixation vibes, multiple orgasms, vaginal sex, Chan is a little pussy drunk, Minho is kind of mean

A/N: This is a gift for @my-favorite-bangchan for the Clownracha discord server’s summer fic exchange. Hopefully you all enjoy it, and if you do, you may want to keep an eye out for more of this trio

Tags: @dragonofthenorth0726 // @sunnytaes // @wooyussy // @burningupp-replies​ // @bunnypig18​ // @brownieracha​ // @ferrethyun​ // @decaffedthoughts​ // @snow-pegasus​ // 

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This fanfiction is property of @/hobi-is-golden, reposting on any platform without explicit permission is prohibited

Chan regretted spilling his guts out as soon as he closed his mouth. The air between him and Minho felt too heavy with his secrets sitting in the open. He was waiting for the teasing to come. It was an understandable enough thing to tease about, at least in his mind it was. He'd never had sex, that was Chan's biggest secret. Sure, he'd gotten close, and people seemed to assume easily enough that he had, but he'd never gotten that far. He could feel the heat creeping up his neck as the silence dragged on minute by minute.

Minho had an unreadable look on his face, which was only making Chan more anxious. He shifted in his seat, preparing to brush off his confession and change the subject just so that they'd actually be speaking about something. Before he could, however, Minho's lips quirked upwards into what could only be described as a troublesome smirk.

"You want to though, right?" He asked, as if Chan hadn't made it exceptionally clear that he was incredibly dismayed by his intact virginity. He nodded, pressing his lips together. Minho watched his hyung shift again, the nerves rolling off of the older man and making the whole room feel warm. He nodded. "Okay. I can solve your problem."

"What?" Chan asked, his expression morphing into one of shock. His stomach twisted, though he couldn't pin down why, as he looked at his friend. His entire body was flaring red hot, and he was pretty sure that if Minho kept looking at him with those pretty dark eyes he'd combust entirely, or at least break a sweat. "You're not seriously thinking-"

"I didn't mean me. I don't think you'd be able to handle that yet." He said dismissively, pulling out his phone. Chan's eyes nearly bugged out of his head, and a nervous giggle snuck out of his throat. What was he even supposed to take from that? That Minho would consider sleeping with him? That Minho was...intense? He squeezed his eyes shut, tipping his head back to stare at the ceiling instead of the man sitting opposite him.

"What, um, what did you mean then?" He asked, flinching at the way his voice tried to crack. He snuck a glance at the other man who was still scrolling on his phone.

"I mean I know somebody who would be willing to help. You trust me, right? That's why you told me in the first place." Minho didn't say it like he was asking a question, he said it like he knew. Which, Chan supposed, he probably did. There was hardly anyone in the world that he trusted the way he trusted Minho.

"Right. Yeah, I trust you. Just...don't do anything stupid."

"You think Channie hyung is hot, right?" Minho asked, his naked front pressed up tight to your bare back. You hummed, barely awake as you tried to find your words again.

"Yeah, Channie is hot. He has nice arms." You hummed, turning to look over your shoulder at him. "Why? I thought you didn't wanna share."

You were teasing him, though you generally were. Minho grumbled, but you could see the curve of his smile before he tucked his head against the back of your neck, kissing your shoulder. You practically purred, melting back into the comfort of your sheets. Minho's fingers traced circles against your lower stomach as he peppered kisses against your skin.

"Well, I was talking with him the other day, and he shared something interesting." He murmured. You reluctantly pulled yourself away from him enough to roll onto your back.

"Interesting like what?" You asked him, finally meeting his eye. He propped himself up on his elbow.

"He's a virgin," He said. You perked up a little, more awake now.

Interesting, indeed. You never would have pegged Chan as a virgin. I mean, he was breathtaking and he didn't even have to try, not to mention how many people were endlessly throwing themselves at him. Of course you knew his self esteem issues would take their toll, but nevertheless you didn't expect that he'd be missing out in that category.

"And he wants to have sex. Thought you might want to help him out." Minho said, pulling you close to him again and laying down properly. You snuggled closer, listening to the steady rise and fall of his breaths, the quiet beat of his heart in his chest. You traced your fingers in tiny figure eights on his chest and closed your eyes.

"Do you want me to?" You asked. He was quiet for a minute before you squeezed his waist tight. "Min, if you don't want me to, you know I won't."

It was hard to put into words whatever it was that you had going on with Minho. You'd known each other since you were 19, always being close and having a special sort of bond that other people never fully understood. It was only a matter of time before your relationship naturally progressed into something more. You did everything together, shared parts of yourselves that you were never comfortable sharing with anyone else, and eventually kisses on his cheeks and skinship shared only with you turned into easy kisses goodbye, and kisses good morning turned into you being the first person he ever had sex with.

You both seemed to fit each other in ways nobody else did, filling empty spaces that were hard to fit sometimes. You never labeled it, never properly laid claim to each other, but you both knew that you were something much more than fuck buddies. You were soulmates, you told him all the time. Even without the labels, it was clear that you were exclusive, Minho wasn't one for sharing you'd learned, and you were more than happy for it to be just the two of you. So this implication, this blatant suggestion, was surprising. And, if you were entirely honest, it made something nervous and unpleasant twist in your chest.

"I trust you. And I trust him." He said after a minute. You could see that there was more he wanted to say, so you waited patiently, keeping your head rested on his chest. He had a hard time opening up at all, and you found that it was harder to keep him talking when he had to watch you react. He got in his head, you figured, and you didn't see any reason to put that kind of pressure on him. "I don't want to lose you, but I don't think that would happen with him, right?"

His voice was quiet, and affection warmed you from tip to toe. You pressed a kiss to his shoulder.

"That's never gonna happen no matter what. Who would keep you in line with me gone?" You teased him. Then you continued. "But no, I don't think anything would go badly if I did this. Not with me, and not with him. But you've never wanted to let anyone else have me before, why now?"

He shifted, and you smoothed your hand up his arm, silently trying to keep him grounded with you.

"He's the only one I wanna share with. He...It's just different with Channie hyung."

You were starting to get an inkling of an idea as to what he was getting at, and if you were right, you wouldn't expect it to come out anytime soon.

"He deserves it, I guess." He said. You could tell that it wasn't exactly what he'd been intending to say, but you figured it was true. If anyone deserved to have a good first time, it was Chan. You nodded, snuggling close and closing your eyes.

"Yeah, I'll do it. As long as you guys want me to." You kissed his shoulder again. "We can talk about it later, yeah? You're tired."

He made a quiet grumbling sound, something that you could only assume was him whining about you telling him what to do. But he reached over, clicking off the lamp on your bedside table and holding you while you dozed off in his arms.

"What?" Chan asked, staring dumbly at his friend who stood in front of him in his apartment. You stood behind Minho, not looking nervous but certainly looking like you were trying to stay out of things. Nevertheless, Chan's eyes found you, an exasperated, pleading look on his face. "I mean, you can't just spring something like that on someone."

"Come on, hyung, it makes sense. I told you I had an idea, didn't I?" Minho raised his eyebrows like the solution had seemed obvious. You brushed your hand against his arm, not quite holding him but letting him know that it was your turn.

"Channie, you don't have to do anything you don't want to. But Min told me that you wanted to lose your virginity, and I'm more than happy to help. But if you're not ready-"

"It's not that!" Chan blurted out quickly, a pretty shade of red creeping up his neck as he tried to figure out how to navigate this situation. He was already nervous talking to you in the first place, and now you were standing in his living room talking about sleeping with him, and with Minho standing right there no less. He cleared his throat and blinked hard a couple times like that would clear the stars that seemed to be fogging his field of vision.

"What is it then?" Minho huffed, sounding annoyed at how long the arrangement was taking, but you knew he was more worried about messing up his relationships, you could see the anxiety tensing his shoulders.

"It's...It's you," He said, looking at you and tossing his hands out like that answered all your questions. You tipped your head, a little pout pulling at your lips. You didn't want to assume the worst, but it stung the way he said it. "I mean, you and him are...you guys don't see other people or anything, and I don't want to make anything weird with...anyone."

You laughed then, stepping forward to tentatively touch his hand. He froze a little when you did, and he opened his mouth like he was going to say something, but all that came out was the sweetest little sigh, his eyes fluttering for a second like you'd done much more than hold his hand.

"We wouldn't be offering if it would be weird, baby." You purred, sliding your hand up his forearm, lingering at the curve of his bicep. "Do you think Minho shares with just anyone?"

You were close to him now, and he could smell the shampoo you used, the hint of Minho's cologne lingering on you, no doubt from being tucked into him all morning. Chan swallowed, and shook his head just a little, just enough to let you know that he wasn't entirely braindead.

"Honestly, hyung, theyve wanted to fuck you for ages. Thought they’d ask first, but I had to offer it." Minho kept his distance, leaning his shoulder against the wall to watch the way you traced over the exposed skin of his arms, up to his shoulder, bared in the cut-off shirt he was wearing. Chan nearly jumped out of his skin at the information, looking at you, then back at Minho.

"Are you guys sure about this? You actually wanna do this?" Chan asked, his voice softer now. You nodded, maybe a little more eagerly than you meant to, and Minho hummed his agreement.

"Please, Chan," You half whined, taking both of his hands and guiding them towards your waist. When they landed on your body, he tugged you closer, though neither of you were sure if it was instinct or desperation. You smiled, peeking back at Minho for a minute, but he looked more relaxed than he had a moment ago, so your attention was turned quickly back to Chan. You reached up, sliding a hand into his hair and guiding his head so you could press your lips to his.

The kiss started slow, and you had half a mind to ask if he knew how to kiss or if you should teach him that too, but then his lips were chasing yours, soft and plump and dragging you into the current of this kiss. You parted your lips, your tongue seeking entrance into his mouth, dragging along the plush of his bottom lip and eliciting the most delicious whine you'd ever heard in your life.

He was less hesitant now, his hands wandering down to knead at your hips and pull you tighter against his front as you indulged in mapping out his mouth, memorizing the taste of him. It was slow, deep, and you caught his lip in your teeth when you pulled away for a breath. You hardly left any space between you, kissing down his jaw, his throat, nipping where his neck sloped into his shoulder and listening to the hitch in his breath.

"Let's move this to the bedroom before your knees give out, yeah baby?" You hummed, giggling at the flustered look on his face. He peeked over your shoulder, and you turned to look back too. Minho had moved, sitting on the arm of the couch and watching you with dark eyes. He shifted under your gaze, eyes darting away like he hadn't been watching, and you huffed a laugh. "Enjoying the show, pretty boy?"

He nodded slowly, one of his hands moving to rest over the slowly growing bulge in the front of his jeans, and you nuzzled your nose against Chan's pulse, pressing a few messy kisses into his skin.

"He likes watching, but he doesn't like to share. Makes so much sense, hmm?" You asked, kissing and sucking back up his neck before catching his lips in an all too chaste kiss. Chan could barely form coherent thoughts, swallowing hard and chasing after your lips with a needy huff. "You like it too, don't you? Can feel it,"

You slid your hands down, over the fabric of his shirt and noting the dips of his chest and stomach before they stopped at his waistband. Then, ever so slowly, one hand dipped lower, brushing against the sizable tent in the front of his pants. He hissed, tipping his head back and taking a couple deep gulps of air. It was pathetic the way he'd gotten hard just from kissing you, from feeling Minho watch him. He'd never realized he liked that sort of thing. But what was even more pathetic was the way he wholeheartedly feared he'd blow his load in his pants if you kept teasing him like this.

"You do like it, right Channie-ah?" You asked, pulling away with a faux pout. He nodded a little more frantically then, not wanting you to go too far. "Don't mind if he comes with us, right? Watches you fuck me for the first time?"

"Don't mind," He repeated in a half whine, his face going even pinker than it had been moments prior. You smiled, looking back to Minho.

"What do you say, Min? Wanna come watch us play?" You asked. Minho breathed out a chuckle, standing up to follow you as you led Chan back towards his bedroom. You nudged Chan back towards the bed, watching as his knees gave out and he sat down at the edge of the bed. You motioned with a hand for him to scoot backwards, which he did before you straddled him, settling on top of his thick thighs with a smile.

"Okay, we're gonna take it slow, yeah baby? And you're gonna tell me if you want me to stop, and I will. No judgement, I want this to be good for you. Gotta make sure your first time is one to remember, right wolfie?" Your voice reminded him of a cat, practically purring, your words humming in your chest before tumbling out against the skin of his neck as you pressed long, slow kisses along it. More like a lion, maybe. You felt him shiver at the name, a swell of pride rising through you. He nodded. "That's a good boy. Such a good listener aren't you? Do you wanna kiss me, Channie?"

His hands finally settled at your hips, squeezing the flesh as if trying to keep himself from going entirely insane right then and there. You kissed his jaw, over his cheek, his chin, carefully avoiding the touch of his lips. He huffed, dipping his head to catch your lips with his. You considered reprimanding him for not asking for what he wanted, but the way he chased your kisses was too endearing to discourage. So you tangled your fingers into his hair and let him lead the kiss, testing where he'd steer things. After all, you were the one with the experience, but he was the one you were here to please.

The kiss was long, slow, but certainly not passive. He was good at this part, you must admit. You let your hands slide along his arms, not so subtly feeling up the muscles he worked hard for. When you were breathless and aching to feel more than the flex of his biceps under your fingertips, you pulled away, admiring how pretty his lips were like this, swollen and pink and glossy from the kisses.

"Can I take your shirt off?" You asked, hands finding the hem of his black t-shirt and dipping underneath, tracing just above his waistband and feeling his stomach tense at the light, ticklish sensation. He nodded, and you wasted no time in pulling his shirt off and casting it aside. You hoped it had ended up somewhere vaguely near the laundry hamper but it was hard to say for sure.

You flushed with heat at the sight in front of you, his toned chest and stomach, and the way he turned pink at the attention you were flooding over him. You hummed, dragging your fingers down the ridges of his abs, then back up to the curve of his pecs.

"Fucking knew you were hiding something amazing under those hoodies and shit." You mused, pushing at his shoulders until he took the hint and fell backwards. You kissed him again, distracting him as your hands mapped out the feeling of him. A feeling you could definitely get used to. You made a mental note to bring that up with the boys after all was said and done.

You pulled away from his lips again, sliding down so you could mouth over his collarbone, suckling a pretty mark there and making a contented noise when he moaned. The sound was pretty, so broken already and you looked up to meet his eye before moving down to leave another on his chest.

You took your time there, searching for the spots that made him hiss or groan or buck his hips up against your tummy. Eventually you gave in, swirling your tongue around one of his nipples. The strained moan he released sent arousal pooling between your thighs. Chan covered his mouth with the back of his hand, turning ever so slightly away so he wasn't looking at you directly. You pouted, sitting up and brushing his hand away before firmly turning his chin back so he was looking at you.

"Did I say you could muffle those pretty sounds?" You asked, still pouting at him. His eyes widened, and he opened his mouth to speak, getting cut off when you tweaked one of his nipples, thumbing over it and bringing another pretty sound out of him. "I don't remember telling you that, so let's get that hand out of the way before I have to tie them up, okay?"

"Okay," He managed, eyes blown wide with lust. You smiled then, patting his cheek gently and tugging at his bottom lip with your thumb, watching the way his mouth opened with hesitation. God, you were gonna ruin this man if it was the last thing you did.

"Good boy," You hummed, dipping your head to suck the other nipple into your mouth, giving it the same attention that you'd just given the other, tugging at it with your teeth until he finally gave in and let out a pretty whine. You smiled then, continuing your path down his front, sucking and nipping at his stomach and leaving another hickey against his hip, thumbing over it once you were satisfied.

When you looked up, you were met with desperate eyes and an adorable pout as he watched you. You tucked your fingers under the waistband of his pants, toying with the fabric as you sat back.

"Can I take these off?" You asked.

"Yes, please." He answered, and you felt your chest tighten with pride at how quickly he'd eased into answering you, pretty manners and all. So you didn't tease him anymore, undoing the button on his pants and tugging them off of him so he was left in only his underwear. You stood up, though not overly thrilled with the space between the two of you now. "Let's make this a little more even,"

You pulled off your top, tossing it aside, then shimmied out of your jeans so you were left in the matching bra and panty set that you'd picked out for the occasion. Chan sat up on his elbows, and you could swear he looked like he was gonna pass out on you. You did a little spin, making sure to show him all of your best angles.

"What do you think? Like it?" You asked as if you'd shown him any old outfit instead of the sexiest set you could find in your closet. His tongue drew over his lips and he nodded.

"Look so pretty. Can't believe I'm actually seeing you like this," He mumbled, sitting up properly and shifting to alleviate some of the discomfort his raging hard on was causing him. You beamed, glancing over at Minho who had settled himself in Chan's gaming chair. He wasn't undressed yet, but the hand stilled over his bulge told you that he wasn't too far from giving in and telling the both of you to hurry things up.

"Do you think about me a lot, wolfie?" You asked, returning to the bed and kneeling beside him. "Have you imagined it? Fucking me, I mean?"

His attention quickly flicked over to his friend, a look of worry flashing over his face at the question before he looked back at you. You tutted gently.

"I didn't ask Minho, I asked you. He won't be mad if you wanna fuck me, he was the same way. My pretty, pining boys. Besides, he doesn't mind sharing with you. Bet he could teach you everything you wanna know, help you learn to take care of your partner the way you wanna." You traced your fingers along the dip of his pecs, tipping your head. "So, I'll ask you again. Have you imagined fucking me before?"

"Yes," He admitted finally, and you watched him swallow. You pecked his lips in silent praise.

"What did you imagine?"

"What?" He asked, his eyebrows furrowed as he tried to make sense of your oh-so-simple question.

"You heard me. Tell me what you fantasize about. Can't take care of you if I don't know what you want." You said. He nodded, eyes flitting back and forth to avoid looking at you directly.

"Think about touching you. Playing with your nipples, or fingering you." He said, and you nearly cooed at how damn cute he sounded.

"Do you wanna touch?" You asked, already reaching behind your back to unclasp your bra. His lips parted, and you half wondered if he'd start drooling, but you didn't want to tease him, so instead you shucked off the fabric and guided one of his hands up to knead at the warm flesh of your tits. He stiffened for a moment, but then he relaxed back against the bed, caressing your skin carefully, like he was afraid you'd break. You didn't rush him, letting him find his own pace and watching him with what you could only imagine to be a predatory gleam in your eye.

His touch was careful, and he shifted enough to bring his other hand up, calloused skin exploring sweet, smooth breasts. When his thumbs skimmed your nipples, you let out a sigh and he felt them harden under his touch. He took that as an invitation to try again, flicking his thumbs over them, and eventually gaining the confidence to pinch them lightly, revelling in the way you moaned for him, soft and airy and barely there, but it sent his head reeling.

"Can I put them in my mouth?" He asked, chewing on his bottom lip and still entirely fixated on your tits. You nodded, straddling his lap again and letting him do as he pleased.

The way his tongue swirled around them, hesitant at first, then more confident as he got a feel for it was so much like what you'd done to him, which was, you realized, exactly what you liked. You tipped your head back, dragging your fingers through his hair and murmuring praise as he switched to the other side.

You tried not to let the feeling get the best of you, but you couldn't help the way your hips slowly rolled into his, searching for some sort of relief from the aching throb between your legs. You were drenched, and you wouldn't be surprised if there was a wet patch on him when you finally moved. Then your clit was dragging right over the line of his cock, and you hissed out a broken moan. His breath hitched, teeth dragging over your sensitive, overworked nipple and you nearly shivered in his lap.

"Sorry, baby," You mumbled, but he didn't speak, his hands finding your hips and pulling you to do it again, the slow, deliberate roll of your hips into his, and both of you shared in your moans this time, seeking out a pace that would relieve the tension both of you were building. You let him lead it, pressing a hand back against his thigh, the other on his shoulder as you ground your hips against his.

Chan wasn't holding up nearly as well as you were, his eyebrows furrowed together in what almost looked like pain, a desperate attempt to keep from flying off the deep end. You were sitting in his lap, you were grinding on his cock and you were soaking through your panties, he could feel it, and it was driving him insane. He noticed the signs too late, the desperate clawing feeling of his end, and his eyes shot wide. He didn't have time to warn you, nor the self control to stop himself.

You stilled at the nearly agonized groan he let out, letting him ride out the high you'd been watching him chase, and marveling at how pretty he was when he came, the bliss painted all over his face and his chest heaving, sweat beading along his hairline. You were gonna fucking eat him alive. You leaned down, kissing his neck and flicking your tongue along his pulse.

"Fuck," He whined, both arms coming up to cover his face. You pouted, trying to pry them away only to be stopped by his sheer strength. You huffed then, kissing his chest and arms and the underside of his jaw.

"Wolfie, lemme see you." You said gently, though it wasn't to be mistaken for a request, and it was clear that Chan could tell by the way his arms slowly fell away from his face. He was beet red, eyes actively avoiding meeting yours. "Why are you embarrassed? Wasn't the point to have fun and feel good? It felt good, right? Looked like you were having a good time, sounded like it too."

You knew it was a little bit cruel to tease him the way you were, but you couldn't help it. It was all true, after all. And you wouldn't even attempt to say that you were off-put by the fact that you'd made him cum too soon. Just meant he'd be even more sensitive when you fucked him later, even prettier to listen to and watch and -- fuck you were getting off track.

"I didn't mean to...I should have tried harder." He mumbled. You pouted, dragging him into a kiss and soothing your tongue over his bottom lip as if to ease the mental blow he'd taken.

"No, baby, you're amazing." You promised, brushing his hair from his forehead and tracing his face. "It was cute, I liked it. I can prove it to you if you need it. Just because you came doesn't mean you've done something wrong. Don't think like that, okay?"

He didn't seem entirely convinced, but his shoulders were relaxing, and you continued brushing your fingers along his cheek and across his jaw.

"How about this. You can make me cum now, and then I'm sure by the end of it you'll be ready to go again and you can fuck me for real." You offered, and if it weren't for the sincere pep in your voice, Chan probably would have found a way to melt into the bed and disappear.

"Okay, yeah. I can try."

"No trying," Minho said. When the both of you looked over, he'd stripped down to his boxers, stroking his hand along the outline of his dick. "You'll make them cum. I'll show you if I have to, but you can't miss out on that."

You laughed, rolling off of Chan's lap to lay beside him and wiggling your panties down your hips. You could feel the fabric stick to your folds, soaked in your arousal and probably Chan's cum too. Once they were kicked off the bed, you spread your thighs open and looked at Chan, silently inviting him between them.

He was still flushed, though the dark look in his eye was back and his teeth had caught his bottom lip again. He sat up, flinching at the uncomfortable feeling of soiled boxers. You frowned.

"Here, why don't we take those off. Can't be very comfy." You offered. He hesitated, fingers toying with the waistband. "Nobody is gonna judge you. You don't have to if you don't want to. This is about making sure you have a good time."

The reassurance was enough, and he was quick to strip down with you. He wasn't fully hard, but you were already eyeing his cock, thinking about how he would feel once you'd gotten him rock hard again, how it would feel if you could get him inside of you. The thought alone made your pussy clench around nothing, something that Chan managed to catch sight of just as he shuffled to kneel between your legs. His lips parted, face alight with awe as he looked at you, wet and begging to be full of something. And it was because of him? He swallowed.

"You said you wanted to finger them, right?" Minho asked. He stood up, all lean muscle and laid back confidence. "Do you know how to do it?"

"I mean yeah, I know how," Chan said. He clearly tried not to sound defensive, but the quickness in his response gave him away. "I mean, I've seen it. In videos and shit."

"It's basically like that." You said, sliding a hand between your legs to lazily circle your clit and release some of the pent up desperation you were battling. This was a learning experience.

"Here, take your hand and feel how wet they are," Minho nudged his hyung's wrist towards your core, and Chan listened ever so obediently. He slowly dragged one finger through your folds, watching the way your stomach tensed and you fought the urge to follow his touch. His finger came away glistening, and he stared at your juices on his skin like he'd never seen anything like it. "Keep touching like that. They like it slow at first, really get them worked up."

You wanted to hush him, tell him that you were supposed to be the one teaching Chan what to do, but when it came to making you feel good, you figured nobody could teach it the way Minho could. Then Chan was running his finger through your folds, just barely brushing against your clit before he was gliding it back down again. You hummed, and you hoped it sounded as much like encouragement as you wanted it to, but you were busy basking in the sweet relief that came with finally being touched.

"And right here," Minho leaned closer, pressing up behind Chan to guide his hand up, gliding the older man's finger effortlessly over your clit. You moaned, a half gasp really, and Chan tried to pull his hand away -- nerves no doubt -- but Minho kept him where he was, showing him how to circle the bundle of nerves just the way you liked. "Could make them cum like that if you wanted. Just rub it a little faster. Yeah, just like that,"

The tone of Minho's voice made Chan shiver, something that the both of you could feel with how close you were pressed up to him. Chan did as he was instructed even once Minho's hand moved away to knead at the sensitive flesh of your thighs.

"You wanna listen to them, watch how they react. You'll get a feel for what's good that way." Minho left a sharp slap to your thigh and you keened. "See? They like it a little rough, but they're bossy. Not that you mind that, do you?"

Minho had that shit-eating grin, and you glared at him as well as you could with Chan already pushing you closer to your first orgasm of the night.

"Minnie," You whined, "Be nice to him. He's being so good for me, why can't you ever be good and listen to me like our Channie?"

Chan stopped at the name, picking up his careful attention to your clit once he regained his composure. Minho simply made a face at the idea of being well-behaved. You think he was going to talk back, but instead he turned his attention back to Chan.

"Take your hand like this," He showed Chan, flipping his hand over and extending one of his fingers, folding his own hand flat against his before guiding them back to your leaking hole. "Gonna slide them down and you can feel how easy they suck them in."

You cussed under your breath at the feeling of their fingers sliding into you together, the stretch already more than you'd had all day, and the fact alone that it was both of them trying to get you off made you clench around them.

"Ease up, baby," Minho hummed to you, and you huffed out an annoyed breath, willing yourself to relax. Once you did you were quickly rewarded with the feeling of Minho pumping their fingers into you, showing Chan exactly where to curl up into the spongy patch and earning him another breathy string of praise.

Minho pulled his hand back, and Chan didn't hesitate to add a second finger of his own, repeating the process and admiring the way your hips rocked up into his touch, chasing everything that he was giving you.

"Faster, Channie," You urged, and he obliged, pumping his fingers into you faster, hitting a little deeper. Minho put his hand back, swirling sharp shapes against your clit, and your breath caught in your throat. Your eyes were squeezed shut so tight you were seeing starbursts, and Chan was beginning to find his confidence with every pull of his fingers.

"Feel good?" He asked, and you didn't see him smile when you nodded. "God, you're so tight around my fingers. Can barely move them,"

He sounded so wrecked and he wasn't even inside you yet.

"So good with your hands, wolfie, my good boy. Just like that, gonna cum," You nearly sobbed, head swimming at the intensity of the wave washing over you before you were entirely lost to the pleasure, a long, high moan filling the room as the two men pushed you into orgasm. Chan's fingers slowed, still curling up to milk you through it while Minho slowed his ministrations to a stop. When they both brought their hands away, strings of your cum coated their fingers.

"You should taste. They're so sweet." Minho said casually, and Chan's head turned to him so fast it may have given him whiplash. Minho held his two fingers up to Chan's lips, pressing against them until the older of the two finally accepted them into his mouth. You watched Minho swirl his fingers in Chan's mouth, and the way Chan's jaw worked as he sucked on them. The sight had you already aching for more again, and you tried to squeeze your thighs together only to be stopped by Chan's hips tucked between your thighs.

"Can you fuck me now, pretty boy?" You asked sweetly, reaching down to brush your hand over his hip, tracing the line of his hip bone, down so you could wrap your hand around his cock. He inhaled sharply at the feeling, and you remembered that he'd never been touched like this by anyone else. You pulled your hand away, collecting your cum on your fingers and using it to let your hand glide easier over his length, stroking him slowly and brushing your finger across the tip of his cock, watching his eyes flutter and his adams apple bob in his throat. "Please, baby. Wanna feel you inside so bad, let your stretch my pussy out just for your cock."

He groaned, his hand catching your wrist and knocking your hand away.

"Condom," He said, and Minho moved to the side table to find one, opening the package and taking a minute to roll it onto his hyung's cock himself. Chan was still so sensitive to the touch, trying not to squirm too much as Minho gave him a solid few strokes.

"Now you can go ahead. Slide in slow, they'll need to adjust. You're a little bigger than me." Minho guided him, half behind Chan as he reached to nudge your thighs open further. Chan nodded, carefully guiding his cock to press against your eager entrance. You bit back an impatient whine. You didn't need to adjust, didn't even care if he split you in half, just wanted him to be inside you already.

But you were patient, letting him press slowly into you and listening to the little 'fuck' he let out at the first taste of your velvet walls wrapping around him. He was big, you had to admit, not as long as Minho but thicker and stretching you enough to give you the burn you loved so much. You tipped your head back against his pillow and sighed out as he nudged a little deeper, brushing against your g-spot and sending that flipping, rushing feeling through you.

"Please, Channie," You nearly pouted, trying to wrap your legs around his hip and pull him deeper only to be stopped by Minho.

"Greedy. It's his first time, let him enjoy it. He might cry if he busts too soon again." Minho said, pushing your legs open again and you made a sound somewhere between a groan and growl. But your begging had brought Chan back to reality, or maybe it was Minho's teasing, but he didn't waste any more time. He pulled out nearly all the way and you whined, but then he was burying himself to the hilt, filling you up more than you had expected. You arched off the bed, the breath punched out of your lungs.

"Oh god," You half giggled, "You're so big. Should have let you fuck me ages ago."

Chan squeaked out a thank you and giggled so cutely that you wanted to eat him alive. When your hips started to grind into his, desperate to feel him moving, he pulled his hips back and bottomed out again, falling into a steady pace of strong, deep thrusts that had your toes curling.

The room was filled with sounds, the slick sound of Chan's cock absolutely rearranging your guts, and the pretty grunts and moans he was giving you with every thrust mingling with your praise and senseless begging for him to fuck you harder, faster, give you more, and the sound of Minho telling him just what you liked while he jerked himself off in time with his friend's thrusts into you.

"Fuck," Minho hissed as Chan reached down to stroke your clit, messy circles in time with his hips that sent you careening once more towards the end. "They're gonna cum, you ready?"

Chan nodded, not taking his eyes away from the sight of you sucking him in and clenching around him, creaming the base of his dick and so far gone in letting him fuck you that you couldn't even form full sentences. He was more than ready, his second orgasm begging to rip through him and being held back by sheer power of will. He wanted to see you cum on his cock first. He had to.

"Come on, baby," He urged you through gritted teeth. "Please, wanna feel you cum. Please,"

He was a mess, nearly whimpering as he pulled you closer by your hips, dragging them up his thighs and making his cock hit even deeper. You didn't have a millisecond to think before you were gone, nails finding purchase against the muscle of his back as you cried out his name. And the sound was so goddamn sweet, Chan knew he'd never be able to think about anything else when he jerked off now, knew that nobody else was gonna compare when he'd finally gotten a taste of fucking you.

The sound of his name and the way you were squeezing around him like a vice was the last straw. He buried his face in your neck, groaning and cursing as he came into the condom. He stayed there a moment, nose tucked against your neck, breathing the scent of your moisturizer while you stroked your fingers along the scratch marks you left on his skin.

When he got up, he pulled out carefully, and you watched his face contort, though you weren't sure if it was from overstimulation or the agony of having to separate from you. Either way, he got up, tying off the condom to throw in the garbage. By the time he'd come back, you were shifting off the bed and onto your knees in front of Minho. You opened your mouth for him, letting him tap the head of his cock against your waiting tongue and easily sliding down the length of it.

You closed your eyes, letting his hand in your hair guide your pace. His grip was tight enough to sting, but all it did was make you more desperate to taste him. You gripped at his thigh, pressing closer until his cock was nudging at your throat and making your eyes water and your throat convulse around him, but you swallowed carefully, took a few slow breaths through your nose before he pulled you back up again. You looked at him through teary eyes and he laughed. He turned his head to look at Chan who was standing there in awe, his spent cock trying so hard to perk up again at the sight.

"Fucking look at this pretty little whore. Already came twice and they're still so cock hungry." Minho grunted, guiding your head and fucking into your mouth. "Fuck, you're so amazing."

You looked up, blinking and letting the tears streak your cheeks the way you knew he loved. The sound of you gagging on his dick was drowned out by his filthy mouth running free, calling you all the names in the book with the most disgustingly adoring tone possible. Finally he gave your hair a tug, dragging you off his cock and holding you in place while he stroked himself. You sat pretty the way you always did, tongue out and eyes locked on him until he was coming, letting it shoot across your chin, onto your awaiting tongue, up across your nose. When he was finished, you leaned forward, flicking your tongue over the tip of his dick to catch the last few drops of cum. He laughed to himself, murmuring something about how you shouldn't wear makeup when you could wear his cum instead, turning your chin to Channie to show off how good you looked.

Chan stared at the sight, the way your smile lit up your face as if you hadn't just been sucking his best friend's dick like your life depended on it, as if you didn't have someone else's seed on your face, as if you hadn't just ruined him forever. But he smiled, and he told you how pretty you were while a blush spread across his face, and he admitted to himself that he'd be perfectly fine being alone forever if it meant having this night burned in the back of his mind.

"Think they can go again, Channie hyung?" Minho asked.

Yeah, he was a goner.